Icky

Okay, so today has been kinda a bummer. First I woke up with a sore throat and a nagging cough. And second, all the power went off at the journalism lab. We are literally sitting on pins and needles- waiting for it to be repaired. Seeing as my job- my livelihood (No, I will not get off this soapbox) is at stake. It is making for an interesting day.

On the other hand, I am perfectly peaceful about all this and even quite happy. I didn't want to work on pages today and I even made the remark that I would rather chew my own hand off than build page 9. So all in all - today was an absolutely MARVELOUS day..

So instead of actually doing what I was supposed to be doing, researching my next article for the paper (which is over a subject not brought up in polite conversation -leastways not by this chick), I spent most of the afternoon doing what Abigail does best. Which I am technically unsure as to what that might be but let me say - I did it well.

On a sidebar, I am absolutely hoarse from screaming at the top of my lungs because some idiot thought it would be fun to pin me down and tickle me. So if I loose my voice completely, you are welcome to laugh. Enjoy the moment because truly it is rare. In fact, I have only had laryngytis once in my lifetime and I was told the whole world seemed like a quieter place.

Signed,

the freakishly-tall, bible-beating brunette

Finally - a break...

It truly has been an amazing week. I won't go into detail but believe me -AMAZING.. Of course, in Abigail language that means lots of freaky, unexplainable, things that make me smile happened. Thank goodness for that. I have been needing the freaky; )

I refuse to be the kind of person that counts down the days until this semster is over. Of course, I have to admit it is taking everything in me not to. Being one of "those" kind of people would be beneath me though.

In other news, I had my driving critiqued the other day. This lady stopped me in the parking lot and brazenly told me that whatever moron gave me my driver's license should take it back. I just flashed her a smile and nodded my head (heck, it is probably true any ways because I couldn't remember even seeing her car on the road). I guess she didn't much appreciate me smiling because she gave me this utterly vicious glare and then peeled out of the parking lot.

For those of you who know me well, I thought I would inform you that my "Devil May Care" day has come and gone. It was a much milder bout than usual but still quite lethal. Needless to say, it ended with my mom prying a shot gun out of my hands (that darn cat). But not to fear because as those who know me know - It only happens about once a year.

Yes, I do ramble... But in my defense it has been - one of those days...

~Abigail

The plot thickens.

Just when I started to think things had evened out - not gotten better, just evened out- they took a turn for the worse. haha It never ceases to amaze me how stupid people can be including myself. Just when I think I have hit an all-time-low I manage to top everything I have ever done before. Thank the Lord there is grace.

I would write more but I jacked this off my friend's site and it sums up everything perfectly.

~Abigail

i've not completely let go, though it may seem like it, at the end of the day i am faced with the same feelings. i asked myself a million times, "why".. why it is so difficult to let go and sail to a new boat? im stuck in a port somewhere that's unfamiliar. then again, is the circumstance causing my delayed departure, or is it me choosing to stay? sometimes i feel so confident that i know the answers, but at times i feel as though im back feeling like a helpless child, wandering off a dark alley.

my judgement has betrayed me. i keep seeking truth in every moment, and in every situation, but only to know that the truth i once so believed in, no longer exist. a place that once was so green has now been emptied into a barren waste land.

i only want to feel unconditional, but every moment is opportunity for condition to set it. it is but a labyrinth of confusion, piled up to one another. a sinking ship in the middle of a calm sea. a desperate sos that has never reached its desitination. a driftwood continuing to float in this painful existance.

i need to sail away and find a new territory, maybe then can i find that truth which i seek. then again maybe the answers are right infront of me all along, only i refuse to see it. at this point, i really do not know... they say that "one not need to touch the fire to know that they will get burned"........ but maybe i do need to touch the fire to know that it burns.

is it being unintelligent or be it a brush of faith? again, i do not know.