I'm sorry for being so cynical lately. My joyful nature and love for life got zapped somewhere in life's troubles. It's not like me, and I refuse to stay here. I know what to do, I know how to fix this. Life is always going to be problematic, but I don't have to react this way. I can embrace it with dancing in the parking lot, laughter and the typical Abigail look.
Thanks for standing by. It will get better, but only by His grace.
I had a great night with God the other day. I felt so insignificant, so unworthy and so weak. I have always considered myself strong and yet I was weak. I found myself begging Him not to leave me alone. I guess all the previous rejections had finally gotten to me. I just kept begging Him and of course He stayed. He chose me. He even told me He has promised me things and to ask Him to prove it because He would. So He's not going to leave, and He's going to prove everything to me. This chick is going to be fine.
This blog was particularly hard for me to write because I like to think I am a strong person and nothing gets to me. In the past I felt I had to be strong, I couldn't let things get to me because if I fell apart who would take up the slack? Showing weakness is something I NEVER wanted to do. Unfortunately, circumstances beyond my control lately brought out my weaknesses.
The God of the universe loves me.
I'm not going to cower. I will stand tall in heels and conquer. This year is the year of victory for me.
1 comment:
Hey amiga. I haven't been to your blog in a good while, but there's some good stuff here.
In regards to this post, I feel the same in a way. I can't deny my feelings at this time, but I have to keep moving.
And I love a lot of these other posts, although so far I've just made it down page one. Liked snowflakes, the one about love and your "I am" piece.
As usual, hope all's well.
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