Rainbow

I was reading a friends blog about rainbows and God's promises at 5:30 this morning when the tears started.

Yesterday I went into work and saw this incredible rainbow!! I was completely taken back! I felt like the Lord was telling me that His truth and promises never fade. He IS faithful to what He says! I took that picture with my phone and looked it for a moment. When I looked up the rainbow had vanished! I felt saddened by this until I heard the Lord speak to me. Even though the 'symbol' of His promises are not always seen, I can still take Him at His word. That is why we believe! Especially when we can't see.

This past week, I have had to re-evaluate my life and the decisions I have made. I have been so upset with not measuring up that I have blocked people out and even just turned myself off. Facing the reality of who I was and how I couldn't fix it, has been to much. I love Jesus so much and know He loves me, but my frustration at who I am really was overwhelming. I keep forgetting He promises to fix me and that I would never be able to do it on my own. I just need to be willing.

I always seem to do this - I do so well but then I hit a mountain, close down for a while and then realize He can fix it. I really am just stupid at times.

Present:
I have messed up quite a bit the last couple of months.
There are issues in my life that I thought I dealt with that have come back to haunt me.
I can not curb these problems on my own. I have been living and giving into my flesh.
Some of these issues have steamed from things that have happened in my past.
Sometimes I shut down when the problems seem to massive.


What the facts are:
He's just waiting for me to repent and I have. His love covers everything.
Set me as a seal upon thine heart, as a seal upon thine arm: for love is strong as death; jealousy is cruel as the grave: the coals thereof are coals of fire, which hath a most vehement flame. Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned. Song of Solomon 8:6-7

If He caused the issues to be in my life in the first place - He can heal me.

Jesus crucified His flesh and can help me "die".
If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God. Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth. Colossians 3:1-2

"Our feelings do not affect God's facts. They may blow up, like clouds, and cover the eternal things that we do most truly believe. We may not see the shining of the promises-but they still shine! [His strength] is not for one moment less because of our human weakness." -Amy Carmichael